My Beauty Regime Consists of Ginger and Cayenne Pepper

I am a huge fan of cleanses, teas, smoothies, and all of that other healthy lifestyle stuff. So recently, I just put in the search engine on Google: Master Cleanse. Immediately, the master cleanse drink came up for cayenne pepper, maple syrup, and lemons. It promised to help you lose at least 20 lbs in two weeks (with exercise). This got me thinking why not, and since I am a broke college student it was very affordable because we had all of the ingredients at my house. I know you guys are probably wondering when am I going to get into my daily beauty regime, but I was trying to get into how this all was a beauty regime accident, and not a bad one! No lie this cleanse started to work immediately, and since it is warmer outside and I can run now during the day and in the mornings. So that is when I started to see weight loss. Still it was not until I added ground ginger to this drink that I noticed rapidly that my acne scars were starting to go away. Not only the scars and blemishes, but my acne in general was starting to clear up. I looked up the health benefits of cayenne pepper and ginger. For cayenne pepper there was quite a lot on weight loss, metabolism, and antiviral effects. Then for ginger there were things on inflammation, and clearing up acne and acne scars. I was so happy because I took biotin for three years straight and it completely messed my face up. Also the ginger helps with cramps I seriously have cramps so bad that I want to punch someone, but this time I couldn't feel anything. I just wanted to share this with you guys because natural stuff works. So back to my daily beauty regime:

Morning:

I use African Black soap because I am African American but I am pretty sure other ethnic groups can use it as well. Basically, I wash my face with it and the put on light neutrogena moisturizer because my skin is oily. Also every other month I might switch up on my daily face wash because my skin has the tendency to get used to products and stop working.

Afternoon:

My face is usually very oily around this time and most of the time I am not in my house or dorm room so I have to carry around blotting papers. This helps take away the greasiness.

Night:

The night is my favorite time for skin care because then I can put on a mask or deep clean if I want. The first mask I have been trying for the past two days in a "multitasking face mask my version". So basically I start out with dry milk and I put a decent amount of water in it so it won't be too watery. I use it as a "base coat" I just rub it all in my skin so that afterwards my face can feel smooth and refreshed. Then for the exfoliation part I get a fingertip of coconut oil and I mix it with sea salt. I scrub my forehead, chin, nose, and cheeks (sometimes my neck). After this I get ground up ginger I wet it just a little bit and I put the mixture on my cheeks (where my face has the most acne scars). I let this multitasking face mask sit on my face for about 30 minutes sometimes longer if I am busy working on a project. Then afterwards I wash it all off with water, and then I wash my face with the African Black Soap. I do not put any extra moisturizer on my face because I sweat at night everywhere and also I feel like for my skin type if would be too much. My face has been clear for a while but like I said my face does get used to things so I might have to switch up things. I hope you guys read this and get inspired to try out natural herbs and spices on your skin. And you might use one thing for one part of your body and find out it affects another part as well. So you never know!

My Beauty Regime Consists of Ginger and Cayenne Pepper

I am a huge fan of cleanses, teas, smoothies, and all of that other healthy lifestyle stuff. So recently, I just put in the search engine on Google: Master Cleanse. Immediately, the master cleanse drink came up for cayenne pepper, maple syrup, and lemons. It promised to help you lose at least 20 lbs in two weeks (with exercise). This got me thinking why not, and since I am a broke college student it was very affordable because we had all of the ingredients at my house. I know you guys are probably wondering when am I going to get into my daily beauty regime, but I was trying to get into how this all was a beauty regime accident, and not a bad one! No lie this cleanse started to work immediately, and since it is warmer outside and I can run now during the day and in the mornings. So that is when I started to see weight loss. Still it was not until I added ground ginger to this drink that I noticed rapidly that my acne scars were starting to go away. Not only the scars and blemishes, but my acne in general was starting to clear up. I looked up the health benefits of cayenne pepper and ginger. For cayenne pepper there was quite a lot on weight loss, metabolism, and antiviral effects. Then for ginger there were things on inflammation, and clearing up acne and acne scars. I was so happy because I took biotin for three years straight and it completely messed my face up. Also the ginger helps with cramps I seriously have cramps so bad that I want to punch someone, but this time I couldn't feel anything. I just wanted to share this with you guys because natural stuff works. So back to my daily beauty regime:

Morning:

I use African Black soap because I am African American but I am pretty sure other ethnic groups can use it as well. Basically, I wash my face with it and the put on light neutrogena moisturizer because my skin is oily. Also every other month I might switch up on my daily face wash because my skin has the tendency to get used to products and stop working.

Afternoon:

My face is usually very oily around this time and most of the time I am not in my house or dorm room so I have to carry around blotting papers. This helps take away the greasiness.

Night:

The night is my favorite time for skin care because then I can put on a mask or deep clean if I want. The first mask I have been trying for the past two days in a "multitasking face mask my version". So basically I start out with dry milk and I put a decent amount of water in it so it won't be too watery. I use it as a "base coat" I just rub it all in my skin so that afterwards my face can feel smooth and refreshed. Then for the exfoliation part I get a fingertip of coconut oil and I mix it with sea salt. I scrub my forehead, chin, nose, and cheeks (sometimes my neck). After this I get ground up ginger I wet it just a little bit and I put the mixture on my cheeks (where my face has the most acne scars). I let this multitasking face mask sit on my face for about 30 minutes sometimes longer if I am busy working on a project. Then afterwards I wash it all off with water, and then I wash my face with the African Black Soap. I do not put any extra moisturizer on my face because I sweat at night everywhere and also I feel like for my skin type if would be too much. My face has been clear for a while but like I said my face does get used to things so I might have to switch up things. I hope you guys read this and get inspired to try out natural herbs and spices on your skin. And you might use one thing for one part of your body and find out it affects another part as well. So you never know!

Non-Traditional NYE LOOK: #luluspartyperfect

I do not know about anyone else but I already have my NYE outfit picked out lol. Even though all my sisters and I just stay in the house and have our own way of celebrating NYE. I still always seem to have a blast; especially when it comes to just dressing up and filling out my FAFSA. My family and I always start off with prayer or we just go to a church service and that is my night. Still, I love dressing up and I am pretty sure God himself knows this as well. Also guys I finally have the full details on where you can get this look! Sorry for the previous blog posts those were already in my closet so...yeah. My skirt is from Rue 21, my shirt is from Tomtop, and my lovely coat/jacket is from Choies. Thank God this year is not as cold because I would have frozen my butt off on Sunday! Please enjoy yourselves this Christmas and this New Years'. 

PROVERBS 31:25 PSALMS 139:13-15  FANCYMOUSE 

Non-Traditional NYE LOOK: #luluspartyperfect

I do not know about anyone else but I already have my NYE outfit picked out lol. Even though all my sisters and I just stay in the house and have our own way of celebrating NYE. I still always seem to have a blast; especially when it comes to just dressing up and filling out my FAFSA. My family and I always start off with prayer or we just go to a church service and that is my night. Still, I love dressing up and I am pretty sure God himself knows this as well. Also guys I finally have the full details on where you can get this look! Sorry for the previous blog posts those were already in my closet so...yeah. My skirt is from Rue 21, my shirt is from Tomtop, and my lovely coat/jacket is from Choies. Thank God this year is not as cold because I would have frozen my butt off on Sunday! Please enjoy yourselves this Christmas and this New Years'. 

PROVERBS 31:25 PSALMS 139:13-15  FANCYMOUSE 

How I Add Furr to My Thrifting Finds

In this article I do want to talk about how I add my little white faux fur neck collar to almost all of my thrift store finds. Basically, this was just a thought because in July I bought a gorgeous white cape coat and the neck collar was removable. So what I do is I take the neck collar, I get a few safety pins and pin them around my collar and viola! A fancy little faux fur neck collar to every jacket. It goes from a thrift store find to a BooHoo or SheIn styled jacket. Also, I love those stores so please check them out! www.shein.com and/or www.boohoo.com. 

PROVERBS 31:25

How I Add Furr to My Thrifting Finds

In this article I do want to talk about how I add my little white faux fur neck collar to almost all of my thrift store finds. Basically, this was just a thought because in July I bought a gorgeous white cape coat and the neck collar was removable. So what I do is I take the neck collar, I get a few safety pins and pin them around my collar and viola! A fancy little faux fur neck collar to every jacket. It goes from a thrift store find to a BooHoo or SheIn styled jacket. Also, I love those stores so please check them out! www.shein.com and/or www.boohoo.com. 

PROVERBS 31:25

Emerging Fashion Illustrator #artstyleblogger

I do not want to be another fashion or lifestyle blogger. I have seen so many that at this point it is not even funny. I am even starting to think maybe I should just give this up. Then my inner stronger me whispers do not give up on your dreams. If someone really knows me then they know that I am not competitive and I just cannot put up with crazy competitive people. I know that fashion is competitive but it is starting to seem overwhelmingly competitive because all I want is to do what I love and honestly get paid for it. My ultimate goals is just to have my voice heard. I just want to stand out from other Fashion Bloggers by sharing more then just my love for God and fashion. Although, I eventually want to get paid this is not some get rich quick scheme for me. I want to be the young woman that every woman and girl can relate to. I love lifestyle blogs but the thing that turns me off about them is that they are not relatable. Basically, I am just looking at professional pictures that exhibit every luxurious thing that happens in someone's life. I am not bashing lifestyle bloggers because if they have the money they have every right to shop and travel. So yea, even though you guys have already been seeing a  lot of art on my blog expect to start seeing Fashion Illustrations. Please  believe me when I say I am stepping out of my comfort zone. I have never really done fashion illustrations. 

Emerging Fashion Illustrator #artstyleblogger

I do not want to be another fashion or lifestyle blogger. I have seen so many that at this point it is not even funny. I am even starting to think maybe I should just give this up. Then my inner stronger me whispers do not give up on your dreams. If someone really knows me then they know that I am not competitive and I just cannot put up with crazy competitive people. I know that fashion is competitive but it is starting to seem overwhelmingly competitive because all I want is to do what I love and honestly get paid for it. My ultimate goals is just to have my voice heard. I just want to stand out from other Fashion Bloggers by sharing more then just my love for God and fashion. Although, I eventually want to get paid this is not some get rich quick scheme for me. I want to be the young woman that every woman and girl can relate to. I love lifestyle blogs but the thing that turns me off about them is that they are not relatable. Basically, I am just looking at professional pictures that exhibit every luxurious thing that happens in someone's life. I am not bashing lifestyle bloggers because if they have the money they have every right to shop and travel. So yea, even though you guys have already been seeing a  lot of art on my blog expect to start seeing Fashion Illustrations. Please  believe me when I say I am stepping out of my comfort zone. I have never really done fashion illustrations. 

Inner City Mamasita

Friday I just put together a few pieces from my closet yea I know, not what bloggers do...or do they? Anyways, it was freezing in Chicago on Friday, but I still took the cold like a champ and took these awesome sauce blog pictures. My new post will be about how you can diy any jacket by adding faux fur so look forward to that post! In the meantime, I would suggest shopping at www.romwe.com or www.choies.com to get my look here!

Inner City Mamasita

Friday I just put together a few pieces from my closet yea I know, not what bloggers do...or do they? Anyways, it was freezing in Chicago on Friday, but I still took the cold like a champ and took these awesome sauce blog pictures. My new post will be about how you can diy any jacket by adding faux fur so look forward to that post! In the meantime, I would suggest shopping at www.romwe.com or www.choies.com to get my look here!

Birthday Suit: Choies Double Breasted Purple Coat

So guys as many of you know my birthday was 12/09/1995! And I absolutely LOVE CHOIES!!! I have been eyeing this coat for almost two years now! Can you believe that? So my darling FancyMouseketeer mommy bought it for my XXth birthday. I was so astonished and the coat looks stunning on me! My birthday was so much fun my mommy took me out on a date night lol! It's funny how when you're younger you think that you were going to do something different but in reality you did something better. Like how I got to be with my mommy for my birthday best present by the way. Still if you guys want this stunning coat please go to www.choies.com and make sure you put in the search engine Double Breasted Purple coat. I am busty so just to warn you guys it can be tight around the bust and arms. PSALMS 139

Birthday Suit: Choies Double Breasted Purple Coat

So guys as many of you know my birthday was 12/09/1995! And I absolutely LOVE CHOIES!!! I have been eyeing this coat for almost two years now! Can you believe that? So my darling FancyMouseketeer mommy bought it for my XXth birthday. I was so astonished and the coat looks stunning on me! My birthday was so much fun my mommy took me out on a date night lol! It's funny how when you're younger you think that you were going to do something different but in reality you did something better. Like how I got to be with my mommy for my birthday best present by the way. Still if you guys want this stunning coat please go to www.choies.com and make sure you put in the search engine Double Breasted Purple coat. I am busty so just to warn you guys it can be tight around the bust and arms. PSALMS 139

Fashion Politics: Fashion and Religion? How do you do that?

This was the photoshoot a day before my birthday 12/08/2015. I had so much fun my roommate thought so creatively and it was gorgeous. The leaves went perfectly with my brand new never worn Macy's cape sweater (my mommy had just bought it). It was hard for me to name this post I was really thinking "Hello from the other side..." but then I decided  to go into Fashion Politics which is something I am just learning about. First I do want to talk about how Fashion is so much more than image and a lot of people still think it is. So many people say rude, mean, or degrading things to me but I know that what I am trying to do is spread the glory of God through my personal story and fashion just happens to be a part of that. A lot of Christians say that fashion is not of God and the bible does say and I quote Romans 12: 2, "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Honestly, I am confused myself because why wis Fashion seen so badly by Christians. I am confused because in God and through fashion is how I tell my testimony. I have talked about this before in another blog post so I will be brief but seriously though I am concerned. I guess I should not feel convicted and I do not. I prayed about it and asked God was what I was doing disobeying Him. In my spirit I did hear Him say, "Look at your blog." And I did and there was not any nude pictures, or pictures with my butt and boobs all out so I guess He was leading me to my own answer. A lot of people might hate me but who cares. I love GOD and I love fashion. Loving fashion does not make me love God any less. I know that God did say do not be concerned with the fashions of this world, but is Proverbs 31 he also says about how the virtuous woman is clothed in strength and dignity and that her clothes are "well-made and elegant." I believe that the day I choose to love and idolize fashion more than I love God then I am sinning, but right now for the people who are telling me I am against God, no offense but get a life. Stop trying to kill my dreams there are demons that need to be cast out and people dying everyday. My fashion sense and me glorifying God and modesty is not going to kill you. This will be my last post about Fashion & Religion because I am so tired of people calling me a devil. Ha! Me a devil because I uplift other girls with body image issues? Me a devil because I am encouraging other women to respect themselves? Wow, sounds real Jezebel like to me *sarcasm*. You can not let people define you not even family members sorry but not sorry because if God is okay with me doing this then I am. God scolds and convicts me about way more sinful things I am doing than some clothes. I never felt once wrong with God doing this. So I am just going to continue to share my testimony and look modest doing it!  PSALMS 139 AND PROVERBS 31

Fashion Politics: Fashion and Religion? How do you do that?

This was the photoshoot a day before my birthday 12/08/2015. I had so much fun my roommate thought so creatively and it was gorgeous. The leaves went perfectly with my brand new never worn Macy's cape sweater (my mommy had just bought it). It was hard for me to name this post I was really thinking "Hello from the other side..." but then I decided  to go into Fashion Politics which is something I am just learning about. First I do want to talk about how Fashion is so much more than image and a lot of people still think it is. So many people say rude, mean, or degrading things to me but I know that what I am trying to do is spread the glory of God through my personal story and fashion just happens to be a part of that. A lot of Christians say that fashion is not of God and the bible does say and I quote Romans 12: 2, "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Honestly, I am confused myself because why wis Fashion seen so badly by Christians. I am confused because in God and through fashion is how I tell my testimony. I have talked about this before in another blog post so I will be brief but seriously though I am concerned. I guess I should not feel convicted and I do not. I prayed about it and asked God was what I was doing disobeying Him. In my spirit I did hear Him say, "Look at your blog." And I did and there was not any nude pictures, or pictures with my butt and boobs all out so I guess He was leading me to my own answer. A lot of people might hate me but who cares. I love GOD and I love fashion. Loving fashion does not make me love God any less. I know that God did say do not be concerned with the fashions of this world, but is Proverbs 31 he also says about how the virtuous woman is clothed in strength and dignity and that her clothes are "well-made and elegant." I believe that the day I choose to love and idolize fashion more than I love God then I am sinning, but right now for the people who are telling me I am against God, no offense but get a life. Stop trying to kill my dreams there are demons that need to be cast out and people dying everyday. My fashion sense and me glorifying God and modesty is not going to kill you. This will be my last post about Fashion & Religion because I am so tired of people calling me a devil. Ha! Me a devil because I uplift other girls with body image issues? Me a devil because I am encouraging other women to respect themselves? Wow, sounds real Jezebel like to me *sarcasm*. You can not let people define you not even family members sorry but not sorry because if God is okay with me doing this then I am. God scolds and convicts me about way more sinful things I am doing than some clothes. I never felt once wrong with God doing this. So I am just going to continue to share my testimony and look modest doing it!  PSALMS 139 AND PROVERBS 31

First Night Time Fashion Blog Pic

This was just was just a random photoshoot with my roomie Latifah (love her)! I wanted to try something new and different and this was like my first time taking a picture at night. I just think that you should cease the small moments in life and be you.

PSALM 139

First Night Time Fashion Blog Pic

This was just was just a random photoshoot with my roomie Latifah (love her)! I wanted to try something new and different and this was like my first time taking a picture at night. I just think that you should cease the small moments in life and be you.

PSALM 139

Just Being Me

So I haven't really been keeping up with the goal of blogging at least once a week, but the good news is that at least when I do the pictures are banging!  Anyways, today is my favorite yet worse day: SUNDAY. I mean, I love praising the Lord and getting revived spiritually! The main thing that I love about Sundays is that I get a chance to talk to God and be with my family. It is kind of hard being a fashion blogger, especially a broke one in college! Most of the successful fashion bloggers are already out of college and have real careers. I am a broke college student who is crying out to God (literally). I felt happy thought that my sister wanted to take pictures of me, because a lot of my friend in college are busy and I do not want to trouble them. Iyana is so great behind and in front of the camera. I couldn't ask God for a better sister. I look forward to coming home on the weekends to vent to her when I go back home. I think that is the beauty of having a sister(s) because you don't need a whole fake "squad", since God already blessed you with an amazing squad. 

This whole outfit is from the thrift store. I know that they said that you cannot get any sponsors if you thrift and post the outfits on your blog. Still, whatever because I am happy with blogging. I am happy with my little growing blog. I worked hard and if people do not support me because one outfit was not theirs then God bless you. I think when having a career and setting a life for yourself you have to be happy and okay with the days you do not get money or sponsors. That shows that you are really passionate about something! I also think it is amazing how in life as Christians (or not) we think we can tell God what we want. A wise Prophet at my church once said, " God does have a sense of humor, if you don't believe that he does then try telling Him what you will not do." God has a plan and purpose for each and everyone of our lives we just have to give it up to God and receive it. Allow God to lead you. There is this woman I follow on instagram that is a young and beautiful Pastor Tiffany Morriar. And one of her posts stood out to me because she said that she made a list of all the goals and things she wanted to happen in her life. One of the things that stood out to me was when she said that she was going to be married at 25 and she is 29 and still not married. It stood out to me because a lot of the girls I hang around and myself always talk about getting married. The most common age I hear is 25, and that was the age I picked out for myself as well. Yet, we do not know the plans God has for us. So no matter what area or even in marriage we have to know that ultimately God makes the decisions and we have to be patient. I hate being patient, I really do. Especially, when it comes to being dating, because I feel like everyone has someone, but then I realize that I got Jesus and I am not alone. I still have A LOT of learning about myself to do. I wanted the fantasy, but then I had to realize that in order to be in a Godly or any kind of secure relationship, I have to know who I am in God and myself. Relationships do take a lot of maturity and work. Once you have God, yourself figured out, dreams taken care of, and career then it might be time but even then you may still have to wait on God.  I did not mean to turn this into a lecture on relationships, but just know that you have to trust in God for guidance. 

PSALMS 139:13-15

Just Being Me

So I haven't really been keeping up with the goal of blogging at least once a week, but the good news is that at least when I do the pictures are banging!  Anyways, today is my favorite yet worse day: SUNDAY. I mean, I love praising the Lord and getting revived spiritually! The main thing that I love about Sundays is that I get a chance to talk to God and be with my family. It is kind of hard being a fashion blogger, especially a broke one in college! Most of the successful fashion bloggers are already out of college and have real careers. I am a broke college student who is crying out to God (literally). I felt happy thought that my sister wanted to take pictures of me, because a lot of my friend in college are busy and I do not want to trouble them. Iyana is so great behind and in front of the camera. I couldn't ask God for a better sister. I look forward to coming home on the weekends to vent to her when I go back home. I think that is the beauty of having a sister(s) because you don't need a whole fake "squad", since God already blessed you with an amazing squad. 

This whole outfit is from the thrift store. I know that they said that you cannot get any sponsors if you thrift and post the outfits on your blog. Still, whatever because I am happy with blogging. I am happy with my little growing blog. I worked hard and if people do not support me because one outfit was not theirs then God bless you. I think when having a career and setting a life for yourself you have to be happy and okay with the days you do not get money or sponsors. That shows that you are really passionate about something! I also think it is amazing how in life as Christians (or not) we think we can tell God what we want. A wise Prophet at my church once said, " God does have a sense of humor, if you don't believe that he does then try telling Him what you will not do." God has a plan and purpose for each and everyone of our lives we just have to give it up to God and receive it. Allow God to lead you. There is this woman I follow on instagram that is a young and beautiful Pastor Tiffany Morriar. And one of her posts stood out to me because she said that she made a list of all the goals and things she wanted to happen in her life. One of the things that stood out to me was when she said that she was going to be married at 25 and she is 29 and still not married. It stood out to me because a lot of the girls I hang around and myself always talk about getting married. The most common age I hear is 25, and that was the age I picked out for myself as well. Yet, we do not know the plans God has for us. So no matter what area or even in marriage we have to know that ultimately God makes the decisions and we have to be patient. I hate being patient, I really do. Especially, when it comes to being dating, because I feel like everyone has someone, but then I realize that I got Jesus and I am not alone. I still have A LOT of learning about myself to do. I wanted the fantasy, but then I had to realize that in order to be in a Godly or any kind of secure relationship, I have to know who I am in God and myself. Relationships do take a lot of maturity and work. Once you have God, yourself figured out, dreams taken care of, and career then it might be time but even then you may still have to wait on God.  I did not mean to turn this into a lecture on relationships, but just know that you have to trust in God for guidance. 

PSALMS 139:13-15

You Know Who You Are: Texture Discovery

You Know Who You Are

            This piece really came from a place of unrequited love. I have been feeling that for a while now and I was just trying to be open. This piece is so delicate to me because many people do not have the power to combine what they write in their diary or journal then showcase it to the world. In some sense this was a way for me to reveal my true self to just lie there naked to the world to see all the hurt I have been feeling that no one knows about except for God. I used a wide variety of colors because I wanted to show how many emotions I have been feeling in the inside. The hair extensions show another aspect of my journal and life as a young African American woman. The words are actually from a poem that I wrote about how I was feeling to this person. Then I tie it all in with God. The fact that I love this person who doesn’t want me to love them so much it hurts. I know God still loves me and I am not trying to make this person love me. Still, I feel bad that this person will never love me because they think no one should love them. Which draws me even closer to them. I have a huge heart no matter how many times you hurt me I will still try to love you like crazy. Yet, creating this piece helped me to realize that I can love him all I want but it has to be God’s love that helps him. My love is nothing compared to God’s and he loves this guy way more than I do. So it is best that I just place it in God’s hands. It is still a challenge for me to erase all of our memories together and give him to God, because I have built a strong love for him. I really thought deeply while making this piece, and part of it is because I put my diary in it. When you put something so precious and so sacred to you in a piece you really become open like a book for the world to see.

You Know Who You Are: Texture Discovery

You Know Who You Are

            This piece really came from a place of unrequited love. I have been feeling that for a while now and I was just trying to be open. This piece is so delicate to me because many people do not have the power to combine what they write in their diary or journal then showcase it to the world. In some sense this was a way for me to reveal my true self to just lie there naked to the world to see all the hurt I have been feeling that no one knows about except for God. I used a wide variety of colors because I wanted to show how many emotions I have been feeling in the inside. The hair extensions show another aspect of my journal and life as a young African American woman. The words are actually from a poem that I wrote about how I was feeling to this person. Then I tie it all in with God. The fact that I love this person who doesn’t want me to love them so much it hurts. I know God still loves me and I am not trying to make this person love me. Still, I feel bad that this person will never love me because they think no one should love them. Which draws me even closer to them. I have a huge heart no matter how many times you hurt me I will still try to love you like crazy. Yet, creating this piece helped me to realize that I can love him all I want but it has to be God’s love that helps him. My love is nothing compared to God’s and he loves this guy way more than I do. So it is best that I just place it in God’s hands. It is still a challenge for me to erase all of our memories together and give him to God, because I have built a strong love for him. I really thought deeply while making this piece, and part of it is because I put my diary in it. When you put something so precious and so sacred to you in a piece you really become open like a book for the world to see.